I am now starting to forget things. A lot of things.

I don’t know if it is stress, tiredness or a combination of both, or something entirely different, but i seem to be forgetting things. Stuff I have no problem remembering a week ago have now gone completely.

And I am getting worried. I forgot of all things, my doctor’s appointment, which happens but once every 6-months, and the time for my appointment at the hospital – I was early. I forgot to tee up my ride for the surgery, and was so embarrassed, I neglected to tell my wife, and drove home afterwards. Not a clever thing to do.

I remembered our anniversary, and forgot the date of mother’s day. My wife didn’t get a card this year. I was saddened by the fact that this had happened. She didn’t seem to notice, or she just chalked it up to me being unthoughtful.

She tells me that i have changed over the past few years. I have, and i am certain that it isn’t for the better. I need to re-evaluate my life. I have stopped writing poetry, one of my most favored pasttimes. I have stopped jumping in and doing things. I have turned into a couch potato and I don’t seem to have the energy for most normal activities – I am no longer motivated to the levels that i want to be.

I want to be the old me, the one that is caring, loving and helping my wife. I don’t know where he has gone, I looked for him the other day, but I forgot where I put him.